I'm leaving HDPM on 13th Feb '04. Coz my Kursus Induksi for d PTD is on 16th Feb. Goshh... that's barely 2 weeks time. Shit!

Okay, dun take me wrong. I happy that I got d PTD. Exhilirated!!

But i guess, i just can't believe it sometimes. Leaving behind all the people that ended up meaning sooo much to me within just a couple of months or so.

Well... nothing comes out of being scared of change, rite?

Okay.. SHIT!!! I just remembered sumthing. N meaning that I JUST REMEMBERED SUMTHING!!! Farah's bro getting married on 15th Feb. Gawd... *shaking head* I'm gonna be bz like nobody's business here...

Oh well... Life's always been hectic. Just better that i deal wit it, aight?

Anyway, i'm trying to bring up d courage to say hi to a guy that i like. But being d idiotic me, i'm too shy to do it *yess, i am not that confident okay, people* My frenz have been bugging me to just go to him n say,"Hi!"

Like duuhhh.. How can u just go up to someone n say that??! Dat's d one thing that u wouldn't want to do. It sounds sooo... emm, silly. Like hellooo... Smiling, is still okay. Going up to a guy n saying hi?? That's... urghhh... scary.

Okay, okay... i dun have d guts. What's new? I've never been good in sorting out my rships with men. My frenz rships, i've been prettie good in handling. But my own?? U-uhh... I'm all stammers n clumsiness... Shit.

So how in d world am i gonna get to know dis guy?? Well, we know each other. We've smiled at each other. But we've technically never spoke to one another. *Pathetic, i know* D chemistry's there. But no guts to actually do something about it. Urghhh... *help!*

Anyhow, i'm leaving next week. So there goes my chances wit him. But he is damn cute. Especially when he wears those glasses of his... *sigh* *goes staring off into space*

I'm hopeless, aren't i??